read between the lines

never put your heart in your eyes cause when it hurts

people can see it

relying too much on someone is a foolish act

they won't keep up with you like Him

you should not trust people totally with your hearts

 cause when they hurt you

the pain is like, 

your heart cries but no tears in your eyes can describe them

and yes, over-thinking kills you

to the point that

it hurts so much that you need to swallow your pain 

that tears is not a way to relieve it

 p/s: because people will never understand

18PL

Blah ko!!

Merajuk habis.

Emo gile ni.

What's this?

=.=''

Bosan!!

Sila compensate skarang!!

=.=''

xx emosi yg keterlalun xx

p/s: korang nih!! asal rated mature je interested. bosan!!

it.has.never.failed.to.attempt.me

you go tumblr!!

:D

screw you Foreign Body

I don't like how it always attempt to change around.

Duh!

define friends

ATTENTION!! too long for a human who hates receive and perceive too many words

***

there are a lot types of friends but of course there is friends whom i care for

who?

ask yourself

anyway, as i am a serious relationship-person in any terms of relationship

i care about my ship with everything concerning ship between me and anything

take it people books cats food and even my own reflection

and anyhow, things have gone far too much for me

i am tired of caring my terms with you and so be it

i try to put much trust on you

being honest with you

tell you how i feel and help me correct myself or do seek me when we have problem 

but you

you don't care

all you care is you look good to me

you don't want me to dislike you

but what you do makes me dislike you too much

it's not dislike that i concern

what i concern is trust

and you betray them

i am totally disappointed with you instead of dislike you

i am far too sad to say anything more to you

we have fought along the journey till the days where we are in good terms back

but you

i totally dislike the way you treat me

my dislike is to the point that i don't even have the energy to confront anymore with you

i try my best for not being jealous or whatsoever 

because we are friends and i do not own you

but you never see that coming

you never care

yes. never

all you care is who you like to be friends the most

okay fine

you said so things happen the way you are because people around you have been connected to you by things between you and them but for me

no matter how i see it

it's you who choose

because likewise

action speaks louder than words

even if it is denial

you might not aware of it but i am the one who see it

and it even hurts when i try to be along you guys and all i get is that i am being walled

ignored

and as usual

it's me who needs to take the action first

i am so tired by this to the point that i don't know what to say anymore

okay fine

let it be

but since this happen

i won't care how you feel about me

you make me cry literally

i am totally disappointed in your ship with me

i see that i am a hopeless friend to you who seek into being around you so much and feeling being dumped by you for this whole year after we have settled between each other

you don't even feel to even looking for me or even to say hi

and now i am sorry that my perspective over you have changed

you are not a good person to me

you are a kind of person who wants to look as a good friend towards me

and as for you if you ever read this and think it's you

the only solution is for you to seek me and have a slow talk

if not then, we are what you meant us to be

no matter how close we are

because i know that i am a rubbish to you

***

i guess i need to let it be

i have wasted to much time trying to make everyone happy with me and in the end i am the one who is suffer

never mind then

i guess books and knowledge doesn't hurt me if i put too many trust in them

they even make me happier

and so

there is one friend who i am totally care for

thank you to that friend for being someone whom i never have one before

 because now that i realise

totally

world isn't where we actually want to live in

people are totally selfish

but it is here where everyone wanna live

''Listen to everyone but trust no one.''

p/s: no more luv

hotness #1

*title xleyblah* =.=''

okay, ak bukan bajet ke ape 

tapilah kan..ak xlah hot mane pun

tulah peliknye.

org xhot kene sabotaj.

mmg xley blah kan.

blah r.

buat semak hidop ak je.

ok ak bukan nak emo 

tp curious r

se cold cold ak

ade gak perkataan sabotaj dlm sjarah ak kali ni

well, pengalaman yg mnarek

ha~ sabotaj r lagi~ 

nati ak citer esok kat anak cucu ak

kalo ak igt r

=.=''

tapaham ak

p/s: xde irubu irubu dah. ape? nak penyepak? =.=''

colours

one of my fren once said

''if he didn't say it, that means he is not into you.''

well

the thing is

something need to be expressed to be understand

guess what

i might be tired of the quote

so

when the time come i won't wait

because something need to be expressed to show it's meaning

i am not a body language translator

and so

i will make myself learn to let go if i have to.

thank you for being someone quite important to me before.

homesickness.distracted.sigh?

i hate distracting ppl such as that person

tht person drives me lightheaded and blew my focus off

duh!

shu! shu!~

and so that's why i hate ppl tht distract me tho i like them

irony isn't it?

duh! =.=''

and so comes the desire of visiting my not-so-called-dig-your-own-grave game

Ms. Twins Obscura!! :D

Project Zero Coolness.

have been missing them for ages more than Galaxy =.=''

the satisfaction of capturing how beauty of them in those type 7 and 14 film with my very own upgrades..

the beauty of the antagonist :P

tho i've been referring to wthru :P

at least i don't cheat~ XD

coolness of crimson butterfly :)

so many twins!! :D

and so also comes the number from Knowing

20110531

owh!! this one i know only

er..you might be able interpret it lol?

it's just numb3rs :P

p/s: life undergo cyclic changes exactly like mens cycle. it's just i wonder, do they also have some pathologic conditions and/or congenital anomalies? :P

so, does she makes your day? XD you better click to enlarge XD

p/s: #2 *since there's p/s: edy above XD* enjoy my hunny bunny too sweeten your life after she above XD i can't use L today since you'll get DM1 if you see him. ''it's too sweet to see reaction.'' XD

demmit.

People have right  to choose. That’s what give them excuses to choose who to talk to and who to respond to. Hello dear, you have no right to hurt others’ feelings freely you know. We all have our own rights to care too.

And by the way, think back, unless you get the permissions first. Do you have rights to photographs anyone freely? I mean, like profile. It might be okay if it’s just of many random people unless, your purpose is for his/her profile. Duh!

cold.ice.cube.

looking forward for jaw

no more teeth

for the past two year i have wasted for that

duh!

say hi to... :">

:D

 kya~ too hot!

 i'm melting~ *o*

 too charming to be a prince :P

 don't look here larh~ :">

 cute winky :">

 and he still got the gigi things right? :P

he even give me <3 kya!!~

well

reality check

not as sweet as it seems

but seems like jae hee need his own space

:P

yeah..

let's stick to Taec

i've never been demanding before and now i am

where can i find him?

hm..

lots of research to do larh..

+w+''

anyway..

didn't that movie said

''L change the world''?

XD

can't wait for datings with my hot chicks and chacks. :P

good luck xm mina~

i'm going to hunt for this guy*S* this year

*and so..it's the end of my so called puppyL*

HAHAHA*evil laugh*

smirk*dark aura*

pieces of crap.

yea wtv.

''How can i follow my heart when it's waiting around for the rest of me to make decision?''

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return but what is the most painful

is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.

The human heart knows thing the eyes cant see,

and feels the things the mind cant understand.

but if love is just a word, then why does it

hurt so much when you find it is not there..

It takes only a min to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Love is like the truth, sometimes it prevails, sometimes it hurts

When you are in love and you get hurt, its like a cut... it will heal, but there will always be a scar.

You can close ur eyes to things u don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel.

Wen I see ur smile and know that it is not for me, that is wen I will miss u the most.

You have never felt pain until u have felt love.

*ni macam dlm The Fishes by Ben-Gempak Starz

I've been hurt bt I'll continue 2 luv, 4 dat givez me courage 2 go on wit my life.

mood jiwang xberkarat.

hey, i polished jiwang i tiap2 hari okay.

noted that.

well.the morale not from this story is.

even if i hurt, i still spread my love.

for my love are not especially dedicated for you.

but for the rest of whom i want to share with.

and especially for The Most Gracious.

The Creator of all beings.

for He loves all of His creation.

haha.

in that way. feeling rejected doesn't stop me.

H.A.H.A

P.S I Love You

life.is.like.share.there.is.up.and.down.

yeap.up and down.

i have experienced it too.

much.

people said,shit happens sometimes in life.

i said,bad and good things happen sometimes in life.

if only good things happen, then there'll be no competition.

there'll be no meaning in life.

and there'll be no heaven and hell.

*the H letter goes well haha*

well.this week is sort of bad.

and today is worst. i'd spilled it all over the place.

i guess i need to clean up. ;p

well, sometimes i forgot that i am human too.

i am no angel and no god.

therefore, i will have all sorts of emos.

i also need to tear up sometimes to relieve.

seeking for calm and serene.

get close by Allah.

channel my energy and emotion.

but sometimes, crying is better.

crying is not a negative thing.

it's negative when it's excessive.

all things happen in this world must be sederhana.moderate.

not too much and not too less.

and ust. akli even remind me again aft my prev. talk before during the lecture break.

*b4 starting lecture 2 b exact.*

and so, you can cry. it's a way too express yourself.

but doing it in front of others will bring their curiosity.

it's normal for a thing to happen and people asking like why r u crying?

do u have problem?

so, make sure u have a good xplntn or ppl might miss understood.

and it's important too, to share your thoughts with others.

because by sharing you might learn something new from them like from their point of view for certain things.

i like sharing and opinions from others.

it's just that i can't accept ppl who judge others opinion.

opinion are to be heard and taken. not to be judge.

now, i loss my point of entry-ing.

well.

the conclusion is.

i am physiologically and anatomically in a bad shape.

hoping to recover real soon.

because my lively and flamboyant energy is the thing that drives me energize

in spite the love spreading towards me.

:)

so i am going to wake up tomorrow and smiling while trying my best to continue my routine.

:)

p/s: i remembered that, when i was 12, while writing essay for my UPSR examination, the English paper, i can't remember how to spell the word routine. in the end i just spell it but can't sure what i wrote. what i am sure of is that, i miss spelled it. and that's for an A in English and a treat of KFC by my teacher. :p