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Blah ko!!

Merajuk habis.

Emo gile ni.

What's this?

=.=''

Bosan!!

Sila compensate skarang!!

=.=''

xx emosi yg keterlalun xx

p/s: korang nih!! asal rated mature je interested. bosan!!

It's not that I don't wanna stay
But every time you come too close I move away 

I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know  

Sometimes I run 
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you 

all I need is time
  

I don't wanna be so shy
Every time that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me

YMISickness.

:\

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head

Subjective.Feeling.

''Do you know how painful that kind of feeling is?''

What'sOnMyMindLately

I'm not here to mess around. I'm here because I have my own role.

Bring it on!!

it.has.never.failed.to.attempt.me

you go tumblr!!

:D

screw you Foreign Body

I don't like how it always attempt to change around.

Duh!

not my problem if you give a damn

freinds.

oh.

friends.

i love friends.making friends.having friends.

but not keeping friends.

cause they are not mine.

my principle?

friends are friends. not to the point that i should die for them.but be with them whenever in good and bad time.especially when they need me. and too private to share abt so tht's all for here.

but not everyone.why? i ask you, do you remember each and everyone of your friend's birth day? *i see you smirking there*

 

but of course i keep each of them in my heart n mind. 

well, it's principle conflict, you know.

everyone has their own perspective and points.

let's cut tht part. i wanna get to my point of writing now.

see, there's this friend who willing to care of the friend whatever it takes.

as an outsider, i see this as a friends-siblings complex.

why? cause the friend would die for the friend. and even sacrifice own friend for the friendbling concern.

heh. if A would make me sacrifice my time and life for B who is also friend of mine-that's bullshit!

i don't give a damn abt it.

rather, i'll live my life. it's your complex, then why involve others?

what? if u're a lady and has husband, would you ask your girlfriend who is his colleague to look after him at work cause you work in the other dept or cause u're a full time housewife? sheet lah if you do.

get my point?

i'd rather take into account when my friend need me rather than someone ask me to look after other.

what? you think imma babysitter? no way man. i have a lot of things to do and even trying to prepare being a full time lady while work up my daily routine.while being kiddy.

it's rather annoying when you're being notified several times.

i'll live my life. don't worry. i can still survive and am independent. for i seek a guidance if i have to.

p/s: i don't give a damn. anyway, encouraging is better than controlling.

define friends

ATTENTION!! too long for a human who hates receive and perceive too many words

***

there are a lot types of friends but of course there is friends whom i care for

who?

ask yourself

anyway, as i am a serious relationship-person in any terms of relationship

i care about my ship with everything concerning ship between me and anything

take it people books cats food and even my own reflection

and anyhow, things have gone far too much for me

i am tired of caring my terms with you and so be it

i try to put much trust on you

being honest with you

tell you how i feel and help me correct myself or do seek me when we have problem 

but you

you don't care

all you care is you look good to me

you don't want me to dislike you

but what you do makes me dislike you too much

it's not dislike that i concern

what i concern is trust

and you betray them

i am totally disappointed with you instead of dislike you

i am far too sad to say anything more to you

we have fought along the journey till the days where we are in good terms back

but you

i totally dislike the way you treat me

my dislike is to the point that i don't even have the energy to confront anymore with you

i try my best for not being jealous or whatsoever 

because we are friends and i do not own you

but you never see that coming

you never care

yes. never

all you care is who you like to be friends the most

okay fine

you said so things happen the way you are because people around you have been connected to you by things between you and them but for me

no matter how i see it

it's you who choose

because likewise

action speaks louder than words

even if it is denial

you might not aware of it but i am the one who see it

and it even hurts when i try to be along you guys and all i get is that i am being walled

ignored

and as usual

it's me who needs to take the action first

i am so tired by this to the point that i don't know what to say anymore

okay fine

let it be

but since this happen

i won't care how you feel about me

you make me cry literally

i am totally disappointed in your ship with me

i see that i am a hopeless friend to you who seek into being around you so much and feeling being dumped by you for this whole year after we have settled between each other

you don't even feel to even looking for me or even to say hi

and now i am sorry that my perspective over you have changed

you are not a good person to me

you are a kind of person who wants to look as a good friend towards me

and as for you if you ever read this and think it's you

the only solution is for you to seek me and have a slow talk

if not then, we are what you meant us to be

no matter how close we are

because i know that i am a rubbish to you

***

i guess i need to let it be

i have wasted to much time trying to make everyone happy with me and in the end i am the one who is suffer

never mind then

i guess books and knowledge doesn't hurt me if i put too many trust in them

they even make me happier

and so

there is one friend who i am totally care for

thank you to that friend for being someone whom i never have one before

 because now that i realise

totally

world isn't where we actually want to live in

people are totally selfish

but it is here where everyone wanna live

''Listen to everyone but trust no one.''

p/s: no more luv

precious.

i don't want to be the last choice

nor i asked to be the first one.

what i want to ask is

be truthful to me

and please don't threaten my trust on you.

p/s: mode sensitive i.e easily detecting traitor and betrayal thank  you.

*intended especially to those whom are always thinking*

 

this is not what it is in my mind. =.=''

homesickness.distracted.sigh?

i hate distracting ppl such as that person

tht person drives me lightheaded and blew my focus off

duh!

shu! shu!~

and so that's why i hate ppl tht distract me tho i like them

irony isn't it?

duh! =.=''

and so comes the desire of visiting my not-so-called-dig-your-own-grave game

Ms. Twins Obscura!! :D

Project Zero Coolness.

have been missing them for ages more than Galaxy =.=''

the satisfaction of capturing how beauty of them in those type 7 and 14 film with my very own upgrades..

the beauty of the antagonist :P

tho i've been referring to wthru :P

at least i don't cheat~ XD

coolness of crimson butterfly :)

so many twins!! :D

and so also comes the number from Knowing

20110531

owh!! this one i know only

er..you might be able interpret it lol?

it's just numb3rs :P

p/s: life undergo cyclic changes exactly like mens cycle. it's just i wonder, do they also have some pathologic conditions and/or congenital anomalies? :P

so, does she makes your day? XD you better click to enlarge XD

p/s: #2 *since there's p/s: edy above XD* enjoy my hunny bunny too sweeten your life after she above XD i can't use L today since you'll get DM1 if you see him. ''it's too sweet to see reaction.'' XD

demmit.

People have right  to choose. That’s what give them excuses to choose who to talk to and who to respond to. Hello dear, you have no right to hurt others’ feelings freely you know. We all have our own rights to care too.

And by the way, think back, unless you get the permissions first. Do you have rights to photographs anyone freely? I mean, like profile. It might be okay if it’s just of many random people unless, your purpose is for his/her profile. Duh!

cold.ice.cube.

looking forward for jaw

no more teeth

for the past two year i have wasted for that

duh!

say hi to... :">

:D

 kya~ too hot!

 i'm melting~ *o*

 too charming to be a prince :P

 don't look here larh~ :">

 cute winky :">

 and he still got the gigi things right? :P

he even give me <3 kya!!~

well

reality check

not as sweet as it seems

but seems like jae hee need his own space

:P

yeah..

let's stick to Taec

i've never been demanding before and now i am

where can i find him?

hm..

lots of research to do larh..

+w+''

anyway..

didn't that movie said

''L change the world''?

XD

can't wait for datings with my hot chicks and chacks. :P

good luck xm mina~

i'm going to hunt for this guy*S* this year

*and so..it's the end of my so called puppyL*

HAHAHA*evil laugh*

smirk*dark aura*

psychology.i.said.not.they.

psycho?

problem?

behavior?

definitely.

full stop.

no.

let's stop for a while.

heh.

what.is.so.special.about.me.

that.you.tend.to.annoy.me?

get.the.word?

TEND.and.ANNOYED.

it.is.all.about.psychology.

sorry.

i.am.not.interested.IN.YOU.

just.assume.me.as.wind.pass.by.

that.is.all.

you.little.annoying.brat.

i.am.nothing.much.

not.that.popular.

not.that.fun.

maybe fun.

not.that.stylish.

and.not.even.suit.your.taste.

so.baby.leave.me.alone.

wouldn't.you?

i.have.my.own.life.too.

don't.make.my.life.

more.difficult.exhausted.and.GLOOMY.

because.of.YOU.

owh.i.am.feeling.nausea.

just.make.sure.you.don't.make.me.

throw.up.

thank.you.

full.stop.

p/s:lupe dah ape rase ikan pekasam tu. :D

internet.mencarrot.sabar.

internet.putus.time.critical.



angker.angin.


rasa.macam.nak.mencarrot.

sabar.

nasib.baik.sabar.

sabar.

x.mencarrot.sabar.tapi.angin.gak.


sabar.

hm.not.sighing.thinking.

worth

Worthless worth it

That’s what thee define thee

wrath

‘’limit your temper because I have limit too’’