Takpe Time Kasih

Crammed in front of a white board 
We scribble our wishes freely 
Even though the after school bell is echoing into the sunset 
We can't diss on the power of dreaming, unfortunately

Let's sing, Raise your voice louder and louder and louder 
With your hopes on your lips 
When the words are set free, the pieces of us 
Become lights

I don't need memories 
Because I'm strongly, deeply in love with the now 
Being flooded with memories is a sweet, adult-like luxury 
And yet... I wanna refrain from it a bit longer

In the notebook of my heart, the marker pulls at me 
The tip seems to cry just from being restrained 
when I'm with everyone, pain and pleasure 
Stick to me infinitely by reverberating, it's a wonder

Let's fly, forever and ever and ever into the distance 
Unable to wait for a countdown, our ambitions ride on the tailwind 
When the beat is given, our wings 
Become platinum

I don't need promises 
Because now is the only time for living 
Wanting promises is a naive, childlike frailty 
So long ago... I graduated from that

I'm sure they'll be heard everywhere, forever 
Though they do not even need eternity, somehow they don't seem to fade 
Our Splendid Songs

Let's sing, even though our voices grow weaker and weaker and weaker 
Our lips proclaim the moment 
Having possession of a map of the same route was our bond 
We had a fated encounter

NO, Thank you!! I don't need memories 
Because I'm strongly, deeply in love with the now 
Being flooded with memories is a sweet, adult-like luxury 
And yet... I wanna refrain from it

Insomnia.

Best ni kalo layan insomnia-wheesung.

XD

I've been suffered a difficulty to sleep for few days.

And so today I'm going to utilize this ability of cannot sleep.

Let's plan our days ahead while indulge in this pleasure of pain.

And watching Star Wars Trilogy at the same time.

HAHA

We have Star Wars I II III and IV

So why not enjoy it while planning.

Multi-tasking, ya?

OK lawak plak citer dy.

HGAHAHHAHAHAHA

Currently blogging and watching lol.

Now.

Continue plan and later brief reading.

There's gonna be exam soon so I have to make sure of my plan. =_=

Of course Obi Wan is going to kill you.

HAHA

Ok.

The headaches rushing in.

So gonna settle plan for a week ahead, pray *since I didn't hear adhan or I'd missed it by chance. =_= * and have a bad sahur. =_=

Too bad I can't adapt to sahur pepagi. =_=

- You don't have any right to assume why I'm doing what I do. -

Of course.

You can't even imagine what it's like to be in my shoe.

No.

You can't even empathize it.

Thank you.

''Go away, Anna.''

''Okay, bye.''

JantungParuparuPakarbedah.

Cardiothoracic.

Specialist.

Surgeon.

Hmm..

Interesting.

Understand.

I guess

No.

I realized.

That I don't need you to understand me.

I actually never did want to.

I realized.

Understanding someone takes time and lots of sacrifice.

You have to be able to accept things you can't agree, sacrifice your own principle and open your heart to understand me.

And now I realized.

I don't need that at all.

'Cause you won't be able to fulfill that with your heart.

I'm such a fool.

Well, I might be a fool for a while.

It's better than living a fool for eternity.

And so I realized.

For me to understand and accept you

Doesn't need you to reciprocate me, myself and I.

I was born this way.

Eldest.

Quite modest.

Sacrificing a lot for others is nature to me.

And soon a physician to be.

And I am going to sacrifice a lot for all of you out there.

Too.

Live my own life, problems and misery.

Doesn't mean I can't be happy.

This happiness I earn is a sign of maturity.

Thank you for being there when you need me.

Thank you for doing nothing when you are needed.

Being me

As usual

There's nothing such as ''I'm not okay.''

Minding others as always.

Thank you.

For being you.

For being a little selfish as I taught.

And so.

There's no one better than my family.

For I can still hurt them and get hurt myself.

But they are always there, forgive and support me.

The power of two families united with love for the sake of Allah.

Thank you.

-The sweetest and brightest smile in despair.-

| Maybe I am indeed selfish. |

May the force be with you.

Studying Star Wars Trilogy xDD

Hensem pulop Anakin ni mase tecik.

Dah besa pong.

Tp...

HHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA

''Go away, Anna.''

''Okay, bye.''

Creating my own love/heart

ngeee~

Gatcha! xDD

ta-da!~

xD

i know my table and life is a mess because of my misery but this would be my new project ;3

Trust me I will do my work as plan in a shift forward manner since I do slack off now. T_T

| Double Facepalm |

Trust me. You are not stupid.

Yes.

You are not stupid.

So long as you are teachable

You are indeed not stupid.

^_^

Grammatical error.

I did a lot of grammatical error. T_T

Please don't kill me teachers who had taught me and people out there. T^T

The Art of Listening

I love to listening to songs a lot since young

I even love to listen a lot even though I'm quite talkative

I surely do love to read but I'm quite the slow reader

Because I love to indulge in what I do

That's gonna be a problem when stat is needed. =,=''

When I listen to songs

I don't have specific genre that I like.

Rather, I prefer songs that are eargasmic.

But out of the fun of listening, I love the interpretation of songs.

Especially the lyrics.

There's always reasoning in everything.

It's either you want to know and then acquired the answer, haven't yet get the answer or currently it's a vague answer, or you are not allowed to get the answer and just be faithful and live with it.

But for the songs, mostly I don;t prefer random shits unless I do like certain catchy songs and listen for fun to have a good passing time.

The word here is listen.

Not hear.

Can't get it?

Then your job is to define listen and hear.

When I listen to song, lyrics is the most critical part after the songs arrangement.

In that way, I can indulge more into the songs and understand why I listen to it.

Most people tend to listen to them roughly.

But me, I love to learn and grasp every details of it up to the arrangement of the song.

That's why usually when I'm singing by myself to the song I like, people around me always asked if I'm listening to song. Human can see the difference when you sing the song in two situation; you just sing it because you like it or feel to sing it or you just sing to it because you like it or feel to sing it but at the same time you actually can make the beat of the song in your mind out of the air.

That's the art one should learn.

A waste of time?

No.

The point here is how good are you to pick up the essence?

Well, in my case I have time management problem.

Time consuming. =_=

I can't pick up fast enough especially on reading.

But yeah, currently improving myself of that.

It's not about genius.

Maybe being genius you can easily learn things but those who aren't born with it they can nurture it.

The essential things is the ability and the eagerness to do it.

Since I am the type of consuming times on I like, I keep on repeat.

Oh there it is!

Repetition.

Repetition is the essence.

I'm thinking of this entry starting to going nowhere. xD

Let's conclude by repitition! :D

Trust me I love to study but I love to slack off too and I can't help myself about that. T_T

I WILL study!! T_T

Sorry for keeping the repitition only on things other than study. T_____T

| Gonna make Study on Repitition now |

Tujuh hari batu

Your will changes everyday

It's a choice you gotta make

I can't help you if I want to

And Down here nothing gets a chance

It's a threat that's real enough

We can burn this bridge or stay here

It's a breeze everlasting like time

Making so sure that

I can return just to see it from your side again

Always never seems to work

It's a word you never learned

I don't really see a way clear

It's a sea ever churning in tides

In the sureness of time

And our words will repeat now forever again

Well this might take a while to figure out

So don't you rush it

And hold your head up high right through the doubt

'Cause it's just a matter of time

You've been running so fast

It's the seven day mile

Has you torn in-between here and running away

I don't have a choice in this

It's a road I've come upon

You can join us if you want to

Always never seems to work

It's a word we never learned

Time will be the judge of all here

Well This might take a while to figure out now

So don't you rush it

And hold you're head up high

Right through the doubt now

'Cause its just a matter of time

You've been running so fast

It's the seven day mile

Has you torn in-between here and running away

It's the line you've been wanting

It's your time

It's the seven day mile

Has you torn in-between here and never again

Never again

And down here nothing gets chance

It's a world too big for us

Time will be the judge of all here

This might take a while to figure out now

So don't you rush it

And hold your head up high

Right through the doubt now

'Cause its just a matter of time

You've been running so fast

It's the seven day mile

Has you torn in-between yeah and never again

Never again

Typo into account.

I'd just realized that, as much as I try to make up of my typo as my usual self,

I end up making typos again. =_=

So please bear with me. T^T

I didn't meant it.

It has become a habit of mine. =_=

the story of yuna, me and sae

When you was young and innocent, nicknames are the coolest thing you can have or make for your own especially when using as net name or ign.

I was a kid too. Back at my age, I do create one. Few maybe. But I stick to one mostly.

I love Yuna from Final Fantasy X that I start to learn every single details about her. It's funny back then I did make a print copy of her details. Such stalker. Haha.

Love her to the point that my Friendster account when I was active also named as Yuna Ice.

And my parents know pretty well of my Yuna Ice. ._.

Yuna Ice is my variety of name. The Ice makes it sounds cool. Yunalesca is too classic.

The big and lots of reason behind why I like Yuna so much? I think I'm not gonna put through this entry since it will take up lots of my time to type. xD

Just simply put.

I adore her.

Besides her hair, job and her heterochromia eyes which looks so cool! xD

Exclusively to Yuna of course. :P

Yuna the High Summoner :3

And the sequel; Final Fantasy X-2 also I adore. XD

As long as it is about her, I get to learn. ;3

But when I start playing games few years ago, I stop using Yuna as my net name since she is well known and fasho people randomly use her name. 

And so I came up with lots of names but few of exclusively of use.

The one I like to share here as entitled to this entry; Sae

Sae Kurosawa

;3

Very beautiful yet set story of Final Boss of

Fatal Frame 2: Crimson Butterfly

I'd known of Fatal Frame Series from Xtreme.fm kot eja camna tah.

From radio fm I think focusing on teenagers.

They're talking of top ten games on what platform I dunno.

But that's where I heard you can kill ghost with a camera. ;3

Camera Obscura per se. ;3

PS2 maybe since FF is.. I mean Fatal Frame not Final Fantasy =,=''

If got mixed between both usually since I love using shorthand. =,=''

People got mixed up abt it when I talked of them. (-_,-)

So back to topic.

And also I'd read about Fatal Frame too on GempakStarz

My long time favourite magazine XD

Right when I dunno much and use much of the internet, GempakStarz gives you a lot of info in advance just like in the net comparing to what comes to Malaysia, TVs, radios and news regarding the outside world.

I'm the proud fan of the mag. XD

Kipas-susah-mati. ;3

So when we get PlayStation 2 I rushed myself on finding Fatal Frame Series.

My siblings aka Piranha all knew about my hardcore dream of having the game.

We first have The FF2 out of all series since that's the one we get to buy and the most I want of since I read on GempakStarz. ;3 

And it's even the most favorable one out of the whole series. ;3

And yeah. Sae Kurosawa has been the name since then. ;3

Not much people know of it I think.

So not everyone is into it using my SaeKurosawa name. ;3

Haha. xD

Being me, I love to make a research especially in detail of things I love. Till I'm exhausted. So I know a lot of Yuna of FFX and Sae Kurosawa of FF2

Even of most trivia about them.

You'll find it a lot worth while when you understand a tiny little detail the producer put on the production which no one cares to take into consideration. That's what makes it super cool about things you like. ;3

So if you came across any Sae related name especially Sae Kurosawa, it might be me if not someone else. 

Who knows? ;3

I love medicine trust me. T_T It's just that I'm into games to since young. T_T

Love is a verb.

Love, love is a verb

Love is a doing word

Fearless on my breath

Gentle impulsion

Shakes me makes me lighter

Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire

Fearless on my breath

Nine night of matter

Black flowers blossom

Fearless on my breath

Black flowers blossom

Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire

Fearless on my breath

Water is my eye

Most faithful mirror

Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire of a confession

Fearless on my breath

Most faithful mirror

Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire

Fearless on my breath

Stumbling a little

Stumbling a little

Sho shad. T^T

Why Kutner must die. T^T

He's my favourite but die suddenly just like that. T^T

But the insert song is kinda eargasmic. ._.

I’m taking a ride off to one side
It is a personal thing.
Where?
When I can’t stand
Up in this cage I’m not regretting.

I don’t need a better thing,
I’d settle for less,
It’s another thing for me,
I just have to wander through this world
Alone.

Stop before you fall
Into the hole that I have dug here,
Rest even as you
Are starting to feel the way I used to,
I don’t need a better thing
(Just to sound confused)
Don’t talk about everyone,
I am not amused by you.

I’m gonna lose you,
Yeah I’m gonna lose you
If I’m gonna lose you,

I’m gonna lose you,
Yeah I’m gonna lose you
If I’m gonna lose you
I’ll lose you now for good

Sometimes.

Sometimes

In order to protect yourself

You surround yourself with a shell

Run to another realm

Escape from current world

Pretend to be in the parallel universe

A little happy

But end up alone

People around you

No matter where you are presently

Doesn't bring the joy as much as you show

Upon them

Maybe you sincerely having fun

But at the same time you can't deny yourself

Defy your true feelings

Lying to your heart

No

You can't do just that

And so I run

For a brief moment

Still one of my favorite

I can't get over with this.

LOL

If what you desire does not happen, then desire that which does.

I

as most people out there

also has a gloomy day once or two

but never do I felt suffered as much as about

loving someone.

But as the rain heavily poured

There's always rainbow at the end you can enjoy

Unless the sun is down lol

Open your heart up to someone

Give them a little cozy space there for them

Letting your guard down

But in the end things fall apart

Impressive huh?

They love to feed your feelings

With too many sweets

And the you become diabetics

They killed your pancreas

And then you get hypoglycemic

The problem is more grave

Because you fall into

Hypoglycemic unawareness

Well

I'm stabilized much more now

Just that sometimes you crave a lot of sweets

Just sometimes

I might miss the sweet

But not from where it comes

Heh (-_,-)

And so

Here's the share of what I've read

Related to the title in this entry

Fascinating

And making me more pinky in the mood :P

''..the world is not always as we wish it to be, and this happens frequently in our lives.''

''So long as you are bound to this situation, just continue to enjoy your life.''

''So what's the solution? If what you desire does not happen, then desire that which has happened. The intelligent person is the one who readjusts himself in accordance with his situation, however it may be, seeing as he is not able to change it for the better.''

''Yes, you live your life as there is no time to grieve. Deal with what you have in front of you.''

''One can only be generous with what he actually has.''

''Not everything a man desires he achieves. Often the winds blow in unfavorable directions for the ships.''

So what?

Live life like there's no tomorrow.

Painful? Enjoy it.

Happy? Enjoy it.

In this dunya nothing is permanent.

Everything is temporary.

So enjoy it while you still can.

Pain also is a pleasure.

Ibu said just enjoy it. There's always a purpose behind everythings that happened.

Abah said? There's a good behind everything. It's either we see it or we haven't. Susah susah sangat cari lain jer. HAH Cari lain. lol. yelah kan kumbang bukan sekoq. Bersepah terbang sana sini sebok nak menguntum.

Takpe, sini cream of cream but bukan sume available. Maybe suasana dy lain kot. Sikit lagi je balik mesia. I'll have bird's eye view by then. xD 

Doctor hado Engineer hado Pilot hado Businessman pun hado

Pilih kau pilih xDD

Rezeki tu satu dari tiga rahsia Allah.

Tiga kan? @_@

xigt lol

Your homework?

Define rezeki.

;3

Ciao

I'll protect you with my life

    Sooner than memories begin to fray
    Everything from the past just swept away
    Remembering when all who have gone are now lost

    Many paths, many seasons I have seen
    Time has washed them away just like the sea
    So many fates and dreams will become tragedies

    To see you safe
    To watch you grow
    Visions of love, my only hope
    Such loneliness is worth the price
    I'll protect you with my life

    Constantly guiding despite the cost
    Hoping against fear when all is lost
    Pity not my destiny, no
    My sacrifice is worth this

    To see you safe
    To watch you grow
    Visions of love, my only hope
    This loneliness is worth the price
    I'll protect you with my life

    This burden I must bear alone
    For many lives and more to come
    My loneliness is worth the price
    I'll protect you with my life

    I'll protect you with my life

Another bird flew

I'm not fond of kitty but I do love her.

May Allah bless us just He did bless you and every single soul of us.

English Muffin sempena pilihanrayanye cuti ;3

ngeh ngeh

once upon a time

during cuti pilihanraya ijip lol

i did a project called

English Muffin

aspired by Sheldon

of

The Big Bang theory

during when he ate it

He said he made it for breakfast

And so that's where it all begins.

HAHA

So I go swim in the net to find variety of recipe.

You can swim for yourself for the recipe

But if you want it do have a a request from me

I'll give the link :P

Say,

Since it's morning, I'm having a bad sedentery life breakfast of the day.

Taadah!~

Indomee chicken curry is a omnomnom plus the cheapest fat soluble vitamin + protein source ;3

That's what I have for during preparing this fabulous inggelish maffin ;3

Now for the main event ;3

Tish if when I'm done kneading. Hard oo mau kneading. Did once long time ago. @_@

Ops there's my breakfast during preparation. =,=''

I'm sure I like this. >w<

1st bacth yeay! ;3

At last. ;3

That's all for the show. Have fun eating with your eyes. xD

My QueenD loved it lol. I'm hoping it's better and taste the same or better. She even requested for it. xD

That's all!

88 :P

The Wise Coaches

Once The Coach said to us.

Usaha menimba ilmu ini jangan kita lupakan usaha memohon hidayah.

Jika kita ada ilmu tanpa hidayah daripada Allah maka ilmu itu akan menjauhkan kita dari Allah.

Lihatlah

Ramai orang yang bijak tapi terlajak

Ramai yang pandai akhirnya memandai mandai

Takuti kita lari dari kejahilan lalu masuk ke jurang yang lebih bahaya i.e kedegilan

Takutilah jika ada ilmu  tanpa hidayah

Dengan hidayah sepohon tamar pun menangis kerana perginya Rasulullah s.a.w

Tetapi sarjana yang memiliki berbagai kelulusan pun tak mampu kenal kehebatan Rasulullah s.a.w

Mudah mudahan dalam hidup kita ini di samping usaha menambah ilmu jangan sekali kali kita lupa untuk memohon hidayat dan taufik dari Allah

Allahumma inni as alukal huda wattuko wal affa fa wal ghina

Ya Allah berilah aku hidayah takwa dan kekayaan. Amin.

BloodTies

''Well, that's great thing about brothers/sisters.''

''You can make mistakes and they'll still love you.''

-Foreman

Bitching.

''I'm just the bitch who knows what she wants.''

-13

*kehkehkeh*

Passing Afternoon

Finishing all the season very soon.

Currently on season 5 at home with stomach discomfort lol.

Hoping getting better soon with pil chi kit tek eun ke camne eja tah.

The condition started four days ago with bla3 malas complete the history of present illness lol.

Just hoping getting better.

Anyhow the song is kinda sad yet nice to ear.

 And it is sad how the cut-throat bitch died.

Hm.

Well 2 seasons more to go fighting!!

I have to go look for other two seasons lol.

Better get it tomorrow before pilihanraya break.

Ma3ssalamah.

Boiboi.

I am back. :P

I'm gonna start writing back. Yeay!

Well, the thought of my ibu said, ''Why not start new hobby? Maybe you should quit gaming.'' 

Well, of course I'm not quiting haha. I will lessen the time of it and getting into reality much. Guys are such a jerk aren't they? lol Can't blame me or the hormone. It's reality. Offended? 

''Go away, Anna.''

''Okay, bye.''

Haha.

Nah it's everything personal. Wahaha.

Should I care?

Wait, wait. Let's get back to the topic. =,=''

And so and so and my abah said,'' Why not writing? Make cerpen. Stories. You have traveled around the world far more than us. Kak long hebat.''

At first I thought, nah.~ I don't like writings. I do like but I'm time consuming type of person when it comes to this. HAHA

But then I change my mind.

Maybe I'm gonna write occasionally.

So here I am. :P

The start of so long not writing.

Apart from this is, my Queen told me she's still writing. Haha.

So for the start, I don't care about my follower. I appreciate your expense of time reading around but no, if you're offended, better be wise and leave me alone. Otherwise, come  face me and we make a little discussion.

I might be hard to manage but I am teachable. If it's good I'll learn from it.

Okay now off the talk.

I'll need to clean the mess of this blog.

Maybe put on new bg and cut out certain things.

I find that tags is annoying haha.

On second thought, let me think back. lol

Bye. haha