How things have change a lot.

I should be studying more. (- -'')

But feeling like wanna post an entry today. (_ _'')

When I looked back for a year, it seems like lots of things have changed.

Everybody too have lots of things to settle down with.

How times have passed.

Since like a year many thing has happen.

It also feels odd.

That everyone I've known on DNSEA also whom used to be around with me, like I did in my past time, gotten busy with real life things. Including me of course. =,=''

Even if I go play back I think the world is not like it seems before.

Even in guild group none has talk much like before.

Including me. (_ _'')

Well actually I do can't bring myself to attention 'cause in reality I'm a shy person for being average.

Not imba nor noob either. m(_ _'')m

Pemalas cmtu la. =,=''

 

Nevertheless, some games are not just games.

It's where ties of friendship and real things do be made.

That's how I learn some reality of mmorpg.

| Been thinking a lot before this up to OCD and didn't find time to make an entry therefore have to write an entry otherwise I'll be dying wanna post =,='' |

| Study shall I |

Awesomeness.

That awesomeness.

Only excellence and elegance.

| Kill All On Sight |

Friendship Complex.

It is very interesting how complex House and Wilson's friendship is.

Very interesting.

Hm hm.

| Hmmm |

Bendera Malaysia.

I love to make pun of this.

Tha'nera Telezia

| I missed those days back then. |

Kill All On Sight.

Is where I learned of special thing.

Friend zone.

Good gays.

Nah that's one of a kind to learn of. XD

There's a lot.

But on top of all that.

I learn about teamwork on  top of friendship, trust and bonding.

Love out there somewhere.

Buddies even if I pretended to be gay, I like being gay around you guys.

Ergo, it's the thoughts that count.

People come and go.

But abang2 kawasan will still be the legends.

And I'm an average no-ob as always.

| No want can beat my laziness. |

XD

I miss the fun but I got study to attend. T_T

''Go away, Anna.''

''Okay, bye.''

You and I 

We go when we go.

I'd sink us to swim.

:)

Heartless.

Seven Princesses of Heart

References.

 Farhanah

Syafinaz

 Nadiah, Areqa, Hur

*Kairi, Jasmine, Alice*

Adiba Farah Eliana

Iezzaty

All are reference for each personality from KH.

:P

Anyway, it's cool that Belle's previously old entry has something related to my present without expecting it because it doesn't really correlate with the time present in that entry. :">

reblog edy but still want to reblog #10

 Seriously.~

 

Now I understand.

Enjoy your life.

:)

What'sOnMyMindLately

I'm not here to mess around. I'm here because I have my own role.

Bring it on!!

24122012.a.year.from.now.

Especially thank you to my Suriali's esp Dr. Suriali.

An abah who will always have his name as my first. :)

And to all my family members with gratitude, too much to write here. :)

To all of my friends days and nights.

To my exclusive roommate-almost-soulmate. :P

To my beloved ahlul baidh.-Forever and Always.<3

and specially to;

"Thank you I Love You I will only give you happiness."

*maybe :P* 

Thank you Happiness.:)

p/s: It's a one night stand. :P

*a long speech of today are not intended to be written today since I am damn busy all seconds doing stuffs and wasting time, thank you. so please don't look forward for any speech cause it might be a yr from now. maybe. who knows? :P*

On rainy days.

''I support right-click.'' XD

not my problem if you give a damn

freinds.

oh.

friends.

i love friends.making friends.having friends.

but not keeping friends.

cause they are not mine.

my principle?

friends are friends. not to the point that i should die for them.but be with them whenever in good and bad time.especially when they need me. and too private to share abt so tht's all for here.

but not everyone.why? i ask you, do you remember each and everyone of your friend's birth day? *i see you smirking there*

 

but of course i keep each of them in my heart n mind. 

well, it's principle conflict, you know.

everyone has their own perspective and points.

let's cut tht part. i wanna get to my point of writing now.

see, there's this friend who willing to care of the friend whatever it takes.

as an outsider, i see this as a friends-siblings complex.

why? cause the friend would die for the friend. and even sacrifice own friend for the friendbling concern.

heh. if A would make me sacrifice my time and life for B who is also friend of mine-that's bullshit!

i don't give a damn abt it.

rather, i'll live my life. it's your complex, then why involve others?

what? if u're a lady and has husband, would you ask your girlfriend who is his colleague to look after him at work cause you work in the other dept or cause u're a full time housewife? sheet lah if you do.

get my point?

i'd rather take into account when my friend need me rather than someone ask me to look after other.

what? you think imma babysitter? no way man. i have a lot of things to do and even trying to prepare being a full time lady while work up my daily routine.while being kiddy.

it's rather annoying when you're being notified several times.

i'll live my life. don't worry. i can still survive and am independent. for i seek a guidance if i have to.

p/s: i don't give a damn. anyway, encouraging is better than controlling.

define friends

ATTENTION!! too long for a human who hates receive and perceive too many words

***

there are a lot types of friends but of course there is friends whom i care for

who?

ask yourself

anyway, as i am a serious relationship-person in any terms of relationship

i care about my ship with everything concerning ship between me and anything

take it people books cats food and even my own reflection

and anyhow, things have gone far too much for me

i am tired of caring my terms with you and so be it

i try to put much trust on you

being honest with you

tell you how i feel and help me correct myself or do seek me when we have problem 

but you

you don't care

all you care is you look good to me

you don't want me to dislike you

but what you do makes me dislike you too much

it's not dislike that i concern

what i concern is trust

and you betray them

i am totally disappointed with you instead of dislike you

i am far too sad to say anything more to you

we have fought along the journey till the days where we are in good terms back

but you

i totally dislike the way you treat me

my dislike is to the point that i don't even have the energy to confront anymore with you

i try my best for not being jealous or whatsoever 

because we are friends and i do not own you

but you never see that coming

you never care

yes. never

all you care is who you like to be friends the most

okay fine

you said so things happen the way you are because people around you have been connected to you by things between you and them but for me

no matter how i see it

it's you who choose

because likewise

action speaks louder than words

even if it is denial

you might not aware of it but i am the one who see it

and it even hurts when i try to be along you guys and all i get is that i am being walled

ignored

and as usual

it's me who needs to take the action first

i am so tired by this to the point that i don't know what to say anymore

okay fine

let it be

but since this happen

i won't care how you feel about me

you make me cry literally

i am totally disappointed in your ship with me

i see that i am a hopeless friend to you who seek into being around you so much and feeling being dumped by you for this whole year after we have settled between each other

you don't even feel to even looking for me or even to say hi

and now i am sorry that my perspective over you have changed

you are not a good person to me

you are a kind of person who wants to look as a good friend towards me

and as for you if you ever read this and think it's you

the only solution is for you to seek me and have a slow talk

if not then, we are what you meant us to be

no matter how close we are

because i know that i am a rubbish to you

***

i guess i need to let it be

i have wasted to much time trying to make everyone happy with me and in the end i am the one who is suffer

never mind then

i guess books and knowledge doesn't hurt me if i put too many trust in them

they even make me happier

and so

there is one friend who i am totally care for

thank you to that friend for being someone whom i never have one before

 because now that i realise

totally

world isn't where we actually want to live in

people are totally selfish

but it is here where everyone wanna live

''Listen to everyone but trust no one.''

p/s: no more luv

to date #1

oh crap!

sometimes craps shud be remembered right?

so

*ihatenumberssometimesshit!*

21072011

say..

1030

hey, sometimes having call register works you happily

andthatthxtoQueen~ <3

but i guess the 13072011 is such a shitless crap =.=''

lowl~

GL parat korunk2..n u2 :P

precious.

i don't want to be the last choice

nor i asked to be the first one.

what i want to ask is

be truthful to me

and please don't threaten my trust on you.

p/s: mode sensitive i.e easily detecting traitor and betrayal thank  you.

*intended especially to those whom are always thinking*

 

this is not what it is in my mind. =.=''

checkmate.

it's either black or white

but we are black and white

thank you queen

i've learnt what i forgotten.

i'll take the pace forward with strategy 

to win over the opponent and

CHECKMATE!

thx Sister. :)

present.gift.

don't be too concern of what was and what will be

''There's a saying, Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a gift, that is why it is called the present.''-Master Oogway

someday

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clear up

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

When I feel that I’m getting tired of looking me exhausted,

I want to give all my dreams I’ve kept hard

Every time I feel that I’m lacking in many things more than I have

I lost strength in my legs and drop down

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clear up

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

Everyday I hold out comforting myself “it’ll be alright”

But it makes me afraid little by little

I tell myself to believe in myself, but I don’t

Now I don’t know how longer I can hold out

But wait it’ll come

Although the night is long, the sun comes up

Someday my painful heart will get well

I hope it helps me now.

I hope the God will help me

I don’t have enough confidence more and more to overcome myself

I hope this tears will stop running someday

Someday after this darkness clear up

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

But wait it’ll come

Although the night is long, the sun comes up

Someday my painful heart will get well

Someday… Someday…

can't.stand.the.heat.

XD

truly epic.

i thought they finish edy here and there.

but it ends up here.

and this is where you should see and read.

well.

PGL is truly epic esp for our Datin. XD

well.

since they make it somewhere i can comment on..

guys..

just enjoy it 'kay.

just imagine you're one of those stars in the scene-shot-script

XD

and btw, thx to all whom wishing.

0. abahibu Suriali's

1.ahlil baidh

2. jannah sya

3. hannah yati milah

3.25 boudoudou mas su

3.5 farhanah hur syafinaz

4. dayah izni falah fiza

5. husnun saibah huda

6. iqbal nazmi miwul khairi

7. yg wish n i forgot. sry.

anyway zillion thx. :)

may Allah bless you guys too ^~^

20.4.24.12.2010.say.what?

well.

here it goes.

another entry.

for a special lady of the day.

The Birthday Lady.

:D

=.=''

well.it's the same old same.

same.

nevertheless.

i.am.20.by.midnight.

today.

well.

it means, the end of my so-called TEENagers life. ;p

say what?

yeah2.mature.people talks.

well.even if i am going to be mature, i will always stay super young.

and for that, no one can stop me. :)

okay.now.

let's chat abt birthday programme. :D

no.

celebration.

=.=''

okay. so for today, no surprise!! yeay!

well, i ask for that practically and still, there's celebration to be done.to complete the day.

well, that's not what people say.that's what i think people would say.

and i say Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for such precious soul called friends you have blessed me with. :)

so today, i make the date venue at syami. and bcuz one of my lovely baidh had been wishing to eat there for the past two month i think. XD

and there's more than us, well, they know and of course i don't know and plus, we have a couple of girls drop by there just like us, dining in. :D

so we all join in together and after the athan, we break fast and dive in. :D

so after few scene we make on our own, laughing around, joking around, and being arouse by those hyperglycaemic food, we manage to get ourself straight and there goes the present!! :D

well, i didn't wish for material this year. what i wish for and praay for is the blessing of our friendship bond, the love you guys poured on me and the thoughts you guys have on me even just a sec. i am truly appreciating just that. for this year. yeap. and anyway, thanx for the presents too. :) i will try my best to give my interest towards them and appreciate them. :)

well, you know, asking people to not give me presents is just a bit too much ain't it?

haha. if i did, i think i go abroad. ;p

and say what again?

thx to all wishers

:D

i love you guys.

*anyway, i totally don't mind people i don't truly like wish me, even it's just for the sake of hypocrisy or sincerity. be it. i don't mind*

*what i mind is, for me, if you are sincere, there is no way you are going to stated you do a thing towards other and one of the objective you have is to get credit. and excuse me, can you explain to me sincerity means what? i know people have human right since we've been through 5lectures but anyway, i DO have MY own right. get it?*

well, for the foolish, sorry to just bother you in my nice entry but i can't stand it. you are just too 'clever' for me. and it partially annoyed me.

anyway. like others, i might be a bit show off. but my point here is, to share.

let's begin. XD

the not-so-anomaly birthday lady

*from these picture onward will be alexandria next top cake models XD*

say..homey?

time to incise the cake ;p

the not-so-ordinary-lady ;p

okay, i'm not les and i am exactly straight okay. ;p

it's just tht the thing is this is compulsory. =.=''

the so-called not-birthday-lady feeds herself. ;p

we can't called that leftover since we can still eat it ain't it? ;p

gossip ladies session ;p

there goes me.too full to think and smile and even open eyes. typical chinese? ;p

the so-called angel from malaysia :D

zatil ask to use the bottle as tumbler. heh? dare me? sure i can but the prob is, people would think i am paranoid, no, maniac. so, doctors what drug shud we admin to me? ;p

and thanx for the lovely Lady, you know, Lady in arabic? :D maybe women. well, i prefer Lady here. :D that's a cute thought of you. :)

yeah, boo-ti-feul young lady that's quite older than me by month. great ambassador for Delight. :D :P

well, think back. XD

and those whom were patient ends the day. :D

okay. that's for me. guess what.

Guess. XD

no, no. just kidding.

anyway.

here's are some of homo sapien i can collect for December-ians esp the Saggit and Capricorn.

for those not here, sorry~ either i forgot or i dunno. ;p

anyway, their birth date are on their pic so if u guys wanna cekedaut, click it to magnify and have a look at their date. :D

okay.for those dunno, please concentrate to the specky.

Ms. suhaila

yea yea...i am everywhere so what?

-we are decemberians of Suriali's-

i think i forgot so, the middle one is 3.12.1994

and anyway, from left, 19.12.1992,3.12.1994 and 24.12.1990

yes.our big hero j fan. Mr Miwul

okayh. concentrate in that purple guy on eid adha :D

i forgot. his 7th if i'm not mistaken.

7.12.1990

our pretty quite little ms. group A sect 5 leader

Ms Izni

11.12.1990

another trio of decemberians

let's concentrate on the left.

Ms. Boudoudou :D

*thts not her name okay. i call her like tht and no one has the authorithy to do so. ;p *

18.12.1990

yes.our pretty nam-dongsaeng *nam kot*

Ms. Izzati as they all know.

here forgot again.

19.12.1992

and here's Ms Ada. the middle one.nice dent. :P she's 19.12.1990!!

and there's 3 december-ians here in the middle!!

Ms. Syaqinah

and the right one since we're both specky.

20.12.1990

yea i'm a bit too much. ;p

now, focus on the no spectacles one.

Mr. Nazmi

owned by... ;p

and his 20.12.1990 too!!

it's me!! 24.12.1990

so this is present. yea wtv

nuzh ask me to use this as pro pic FB but hell no way unless she tagged me. ;p

here's our baby, among the youngest one after me. ;p

Ms. Ira

she's 25th i think. 25.12.1990

sorry if wrong Ira, i terforgot. ;p

well this has nothing to do with my post.

commerce break onlayh and forget it.

i hope it can keep me warm besides my warm memories for winter. :D

blah!!

finish edy.

midterm mode.

=,=''

let's work for better result and future!

hwaiting!!~